SLow Month?

April's been "cruel", been busy with other priorities: a new job (full time), a big wedding which i was involved in, i almost had to move. so haven't been writing as much.

 ironic since  usually april's "my month", where i get a lot down, ideas, writings, music etc, since i like to get it done "before I'm (whatever age I'm turning, my birthday's at the end of the month)", for posterity etc, so i usually get a lot done but again this has been a tumultuous month.

Parallel Subway Lines

what if that train running parallel to yours was a parallel world?

Transition

in bloom

transition


change 

April cruel 


occupation 


 less time


rite of passage, marriage

trip


happiness 


what should you do with your life man


love

Daylight Savings Negatives, Positives

not sure how much i like daylight savings because as we know I'm a bit of an astronomical purist, and messing with the clock messes with the system. for instance high noon isn't at 12 during DST, half the year: it's 1:00 since we move the clock ahead. that's even on the highest noon day, the SUmmer solstice.

but i have to admit it is kind of cool on nights (yes, "those Summer Nights") where the sun lasts til after 8 during times like the Solstice. kicks ass.

Calendar Revision, February 13, 14

fertility symbol maimed 

since calendars are very much man made (31/30 days, the "new year" starting in Jan), i think that we should alter the calendar so that every Feb, there's a fri the 13th, so that Valentine's then falls the day after. it's the way it should be: the unluckiest day falling right after what's ostensibly  the unluckiest day (haha). you can even add in there Lincoln's birthday Feb 12, our first president  to be killed in office unfortunately. 


not that im bitter about a fabricated holiday (wink). 

Half way Between Solstice and Equinox

great light and heat

is around this time now. so holidays have popped up thru human history, starting with Pagan ones of course like Imbolc, a time of the Sun returning more and purification. again we're half way between the Solstice, longest night oaf the year, and Equinox, equal light and dark. 


of course the Christians had to have a holiday to "replace"  the Pagan one, hence Candlemass. don't know where Groundhog day came from, don't care really. 


but obviously it's a time of strengthening of the SUn and light, coming back, warming, lightening the world etc. Northern hemisphere of course.

Souls, Ancestors, the Season etc

world's best mausoleum

this time of year  obviously there's more darkness. we're past Equinox where the Equator  lines up with the Sun, and the Southern hemisphere is getting more Sun, us less. so this brings on Halloween. it roughly  marks the half way point between Equinox and Solstice, sort of the begin. of the darkest days of year, hence belief in the supernatural, the "other world" active and  coming to Earth, but also spirituall belief in contact respect, thanks etc for ancestral spirits. this continues on to the Solstice (Xmas etc). 


as usual with original Pagan holidays, the Christians "adopted' the holiday, probably couldn't and can't stamp it out, and turned it into their "all saints, souls" or whatever. thankfully it's survived as Halloween but of course much of the commercial  superficial aspects survive, less the spiritual with US (this is one case where our "invading' friends from down south, Mexicans, can help us maybe in learning to pay more respect to passed loved ones etc.)


as many of you know, i think there should be times to celebrate, remember, give thanks etc to our passed loved ones, and this is a major time for such practice, with the dark days, spend. time  indoors, spending the holidays  unfortunately without them.  i think it  should be a time to remember them, welcome them back to our souls (or minds at least). small sacrifice, small energies, large thanks, large respect. 

"Rocktober"

Lenin,  Lennon (born Oct)

 when i was younger  i listened to much too much classic rock (even when rap, pop, New wave etc were cutting edge), a lot of the stations used to love to promote "Rocktober" and i've always thought of  that this month.


as i learned more it did seem like  a time for '"revolution" kind of: i think the main Communist revolution in Russia was called the "oktober revolution' even though in our western calendars i think the date of ascension of Lenin etc was in Nov. some deal with the Eastern orthodox calendar or something made it Oct maybe. and one of the great Eisenstein's films was called October, or Ten Days that  Shook the World, about the revolution. 


it also always  seemed like a dark time where a lot of wildness could come out, hence Halloween (time when the supernatural forces were active on earth). and even the ubiquitous trees changed and shed, bared their hearts. 


  getting back to Rocktober, of course the coolest rock shirts were concert shirts that were black, featuring acts that actually looked like Halloween characters: Ozzy Osborne, Alice Cooper, Kiss. 


well i can't name many  rock bands or artists that are prominent right now, and im tired of a lot of classic rock,  but still, rock on all! 

Half, Monthly Birthdays

leftovers? 

wonder if many celebrate, note  these. i know whenever the day comes on the calendar that matches my actual birthday (the day's number, so let's say you're born the 11th, then the 11th of every month), i try to  keep it in mind: am i making progress? is the year wasted? etc. don't usually think of it much, i'm usually busy doing crap, but still. 


 i used d to list  goals etc every month and check them on that day. im not sure if it worked after a while so i got rid of it;. still have monthly goals though, to do lists etc so i guess it wasn't all in vain. 


of course it's another reason that the calendar year, Jan to Dec, is bs, in that it's not really the age of anything (the Earth's year is more precisely dated from Solstices and Equinoxes of course), except those born  around jan 1. it's almost just another  reminder, like a clock,  that time is passing by. we're  getting older etc. . but you can look at it in the converse: the calendar year is gone, but you have maybe  months left til you turn another year older. 

Oneday Sunday Funday: Numerology

i don't know how much relevance is really in it but im into numerology a little, think it's interesting at least. 


i wonder if we should have special activities  for days of the week that line up with their numbers. . e.g. the first, one day: Sunday or Mon. the 2nd, twos day--Tuesday. 3rd day, Thursday. you can also maybe go with 11th, 22nd, etc.


  should we be pathologically  obsessed with that number on  that day like 2 Face in Batman? or like  someone with ocd (not my type) that does everything once,  twice etc? for the hell of it? should we play a bunch of lottery numbers with those numbers  in them?   we already have special days like Friday the 13th.


of course all these days have real meanings that are different: , Monday means  moon day: should we check out the moon those days? on Thursday, Thor's day , should we work with hammers? 


i didn't make this method up really:  in the show Friends, Joey remembers the days of the week similarly: Monday one day, Tuesday 2s day etc. 

Suddenly Every Summer

it always has seemed like I've given myself a good deal of pressure in the summer. when we were kids, the pressure  during the school  year was  with homework, extra curriculars etc. i think my summer pressure was more personal. 

• what's everyone doing the summer? are people doing better stuff than me? the "cooler" kids? chicks? Jews  in  their camps? (boy i just realized how historically offensive that sounds-- but supposedly they had kick ass summer camps in NY). 
• i have all this free time. shouldn't i be using it better? projects? gardening? sports? getting ahead (i didn't think that  ambitiously as a kid, but i did think that my time wasn't being used right)
• aren't there all kinds of places to go to? beaches? (i grew up thinking i hated the beach because many of the ones around NY are crappy.), vacation spots? NYC? 
• my parents are working in the summer. shouldn't i be helping out more? 
• shouldn't i be catching up on more? reading, music, writing? (keep in mind i had  ocd from childhood). 

i guess it's one of those responsibility deals: you have time, supposed opportunities, youth etc and you shouldn't waste, you shoud take advantage. 

Why Procrastinate

procrastination gets such a bad rap.  it's the thief of time, don't put off today... etc. you never hear about  when it's positive that we put off:  

• eating. late at night. fast,  slim down, let that piece of pizza sit and enjoy it  tomorrow, avoid that indigestion etc.
• spending money. let that money sit in it's mutual fund/IRA/savings, accumulating interest. don't  spend on some crap like a new car. 
• wine. that great bottle, vintage-- let it sit, age, save it for a great moment like the birth of your kid. 
• compost. let it sit, rot, break down, become gorgeous fertilizer for next season/year
• orgasm. keep pace for a while and delay  hers/his/yours/theirs (yikes)  for a nice big nuclear bomb(s)  later
• suicide. let's see what happens this summer. let's wait for dad to finish his busy time of year. let see what happens with that application. 

although i guess there;s a  saying,  good things come to those who wait

What to Do in TIme

one deal i hate about time marching on, is that an obsessive compulsive like me always thinks there's more to be done, "i missed it", i'll never have the chance again, etc.

but in trying to work "with" time i try to stick with the natural time periods (days, seasons, years), not the man made (hours, weeks, Jan to DEC calendar)

• by the day: to reach my goals, become my fullest man etc, there are a few important activities i like to be done daily. not too many, but they take effort: reading up on the news (world and local, and local is New York city, which is a world unto itself), exercise every other day (hard core, some heavy weights, cardio vascular, outdoors in all weather, etc), voice (speaking well, stretching my singing to the limits: pitch, volume, timbre), "career": this blog brilliance haha, trying to advance in the arts is extremely difficult of course etc
• by the season: lots every season, e.g: spring: outdoors, blooms, parks, love (wink) etc; summer: beach, outdoors, friends, family;, fall: foliage, nights, etc; winter: snow, activities, holidays.
• year: more my year (between birthdays) not artificial calendar year: writing, progress, physical achievements (not getting any younger), career etc.

of course this doesn't mention special days, birthdays, holidays etc. hell weeks at job etc. rough weather seasons. sickness.

so lots of pressure i suppose. to get much done in time. have done much but always seems like more of course. and always so many reminders (not even mentioning the man made ones) that time moves on always.