Free=Me

i still love to eat, but in the past free food was such a great opportunity and i grabbed on to it so zealously because: i love to eat, i was poor, my ocd almost forces me to take advantage of such an opportunity, if it was quality, i didn't eat like that often. so me and often my friends would pursue it with such fervour:

• sometimes when we were invited somewhere with food, we would practically threaten the one inviting us: "you better have a lot of food there!"
• when it was a standing affair where servers finger foods etc, we would scope the place out like we were the president's secret service: where were the entrance ways, , where were the crowds, how fast were the servers etc.
• i almost felt it my duty that when i would find free stuff, i would actually pressure myself and the people i was with to take full advantage. for instance if someone could get free soda refills and they were going slow, i would almost yell at them to get going (conversely, i would never give pressure to any of my friends to drink booze even when we were teens). also
• i would have to take advantage so fully that i would practically make myself sick. for instance if you're at Taco bell and you can have free refills of any drink, i would have to drink all of them, at least half a cup (buy a small drink, get free refills--it was irresistible). so think of all the sugar and empty calories i threw down. and keep in mind there's at least half a dozen sodas. and with 2 cups of those you're pissing a lot. but i had to have all of them and bring a full one with me. i used to do this at a job where i was on the road a lot so i had to pull over constantly for a while. all this not for health, and long term not for pleasure, but because it was free.