i've lived in almost every area of the contiguous U.S
2 major cities of NY and L.A.
LIVEd in almost every level of socio economics
had countless friends. (320 plus on Facebook!)
friends representing different socio economic groups, mental states, ages, ethnicities.
gone to 2 reputable universities.
all sorts of training, education, job experience.
all sorts of jobs.
all sorts of events, places, people, religions.
kids love me. animals love me. you know, those who don't know any better
and after all that, why the emptiness? destitution? solitude? misunderstanding?
how did it come to this?
I don't have an answer for ya. But I wanted to say that I am sorry you're feeling this way and that I too find you to be an interesting, kind and likable person. :)
ReplyDeletedon't worry Rene, not ur responsibility to give me answers. ur concern means a great deal. u know if ur ever near NY let me know. thanks again
ReplyDeleteYou're not misunderstood. That's a cop-out. I used to say that to try and justify my my sometimes reclusive/loner behavior. You march to the beat of a different drummer...that's fine. I'd rather know someone like that than an Orwellian follower. And there's something to be said for solitude, Ken. I feel I'm at my creative best when alone. Although too much intropsection can drive one insane. You don't want to become a Kaczinski. The emptiness comes in stages. I have a lovely wife, many friends,good work relationships,etc. But there are days where I'm empty. I'm not feeling any love or importance, nor do I feel like giving anything out...it's cyclical, and fluid. Good days and bad.
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