Suddenly Every Summer

it always has seemed like I've given myself a good deal of pressure in the summer. when we were kids, the pressure  during the school  year was  with homework, extra curriculars etc. i think my summer pressure was more personal. 

• what's everyone doing the summer? are people doing better stuff than me? the "cooler" kids? chicks? Jews  in  their camps? (boy i just realized how historically offensive that sounds-- but supposedly they had kick ass summer camps in NY). 
• i have all this free time. shouldn't i be using it better? projects? gardening? sports? getting ahead (i didn't think that  ambitiously as a kid, but i did think that my time wasn't being used right)
• aren't there all kinds of places to go to? beaches? (i grew up thinking i hated the beach because many of the ones around NY are crappy.), vacation spots? NYC? 
• my parents are working in the summer. shouldn't i be helping out more? 
• shouldn't i be catching up on more? reading, music, writing? (keep in mind i had  ocd from childhood). 

i guess it's one of those responsibility deals: you have time, supposed opportunities, youth etc and you shouldn't waste, you shoud take advantage.